Breasts!!!!

Why do they matter????? Why do they sometimes turn against us???? Why are some defective???? Do they make us women???



I am a 14 year Breast cancer survivor!!!! But does that mean I will be cancer free for the rest of my life? My aunt who is a 12 year breast cancer survivor just found another lump. It doesn'tlook good, there should never be a Christmas tree shaped thing in your boob!!!



My 28 year old sister has 2 lumps in her breast. She is going for a biopsy next week.



This just brings so many fears right back to the surface. I was 25 when I found my lump....Billy was only 3 when I started treatments. I didn't think twice about it I just did what needed to be done. BUT I still have both of my breasts, boobs, titties, hooters, mounds, etc.........Well one is much smaller now but it is still there.



Come to think of it, even after 14 years it is still very tender. Which I was told it shouldn't be.

I am very proud of my scars!!!!I am a WINNER in a typically losing battle.



But now I am scared all over again. If my aunts came back after 12 years, that means mine might return also. Am I strong enough to deal with it again? I am older now and the treatments were really tough the last time.



I haven't been veryy good at getting my yearly mammos done. BUT I did just go a couple months ago and everything looked ok. DO I trust this doctor? Did they really compare to my last films taken a couple years ago? I have been feelign lumps and bumps but am I being paranoid?


MAYBE I should just have a double masectomy and have my defective boobs replaced with nice perky C's or maybe even D's......Hey I hear they take tissue from your tummy to replace the breast tissue........Sounds good to me tummy tuck and boob job at the same time.







I AM SCARED!!!!!!